As You Walk Away

Today I played my part again

I was there for my friend

She cried on my shoulder today

Anything to make her feel ok.

I play so strong to try and understand

How sometime life is grand.

I almost cried today

I did not make it through this day.

In the morning I wake to the sounds

of which I hate the sounds of love in the air

I wonder even if I dare,

I roll out of bed today

Thats all I remember from that day.

As you turn and walk away

I tell myself that im ok

My heart is crying

My head is screaming

My hands are shaking

But, I make it through another day.

As I go through the day

I say that every thing’s ok

I try to smile and fade away all the tears I feel today.

As I lay me down to sleep

I pray the Lord my soul to keep

So it can feel the pain

I made it through another day.

Waking up I feel the same and just say

I will make it through another day.

I see them laugh and holding hands

Oh how I wish I could stand

To be around the joy and glee

But it’s no longer inside of me.

I tell myself I’ve moved on

I tell myself that I’m strong

And that I can hold on.

If only someone could take my hand

The thought of them touching me

Leaves me in pain u see,

To never to be able to trust a man

To never let u hold my hand.

I cannot let u see all there is inside of me

Because if I take down the walls inside of me

I might just crumble and fall

And there will be nothing left of me

So I tell u that I’m fine

And hold back the tears inside.

Here in my room while I sleep

I think of the most important things

The things I think before I wake.

 

I was crying again today

For only while I sleep do

I let the tears seep from my eyes I wonder why u look at me.

I pray to Lord to take..

Take the pain from my eyes

Let me not break down and cry

For I am strong today

So I can make it through just one more day.

 

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